TERRIFIED
By
Emily Burns

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Every day I wake up in the seam
Somewhere in the middle between
Screamin' out in ecstasy
I'm breakin' down in misery
And even though I'm tryin' my best
I'm a little out of my depth
Freak out at the smallest things
Scared of fuckin' everything
And they say that I
Should enjoy the ride
But I'm terrified
When I gotta be honest, be honest
I'm terrified
Don't know if I've ever, I've never
Been up this high
And I'm tryin', but I'm lyin'
When I say I'm fine
I'm puttin' my hands up, like, "Oh fuck,
I'm terrified"
Terrified
I'm terrified
Now I'm even scared of my bed
Don't wanna be alone with my head
Dreamin' up a tragedy
Solo time is bad for me
So I end up gettin' all drunk
Till I don't even know what I've done
Pour me up another, please
Poison my anxieties
And they say that I
Should enjoy the ride
But I'm terrified
When I gotta be honest, be honest
I'm terrified
Don't know if I've ever, I've never
Been up this high
And I'm tryin', but I'm lyin'
When I say I'm fine
I'm puttin' my hands up, like, "Oh fuck,
I'm terrified"
Terrified
I'm terrified
I'm puttin' my hands up, like, "Oh fuck,
I'm terrified"
And they say that I
Should enjoy the ride
Losin' my mind
And I don't know why, I
But I'm terrified
When I gotta be honest, be honest
I'm terrified
Don't know if I've ever, I've never
Been up this high
And I'm tryin', but I'm lyin'
When I say I'm fine
I'm puttin' my hands up, like, "Oh fuck,
I'm terrified"
Terrified
I'm terrified
I'm puttin' my hands up, like, "Oh fuck,
I'm terrified"

CURSE

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Everybody's underneath a curse
But it doesn't work on me
Everybody's out there getting hurt
But I'm doing perfectly
And the world's gone mad
Isn't it sad
I'm the only one who understands?
Everybody's underneath a curse
It's so absurd
Lucky, it doesn't work on me
It's delusional, insanity
All staring at each other like zombies
You put yourself through all kinds of hell
Just to share the nights with someone else
Once I came pretty close
God, I'm so grateful that she let me go
I'm better on my own
Don't know how you people cope
Everybody's underneath a curse
But it doesn't work on me
Everybody's out there getting hurt
But I'm doing perfectly
And the world's gone mad
Isn't it sad
I'm the only one who understands?
Everybody's underneath a curse
A stupid word
Lucky, it doesn't work on me
Yeah, expensive date and city breaks
Burning through your money, what a waste
And I don't need to memorise
Anniversaries and valentines
Don't try to pull me in
To your world of movie scripts and violins
I can't be fooled you see
I've got immunity
Everybody's underneath a curse
But it doesn't work on me
Everybody's out there getting hurt
But I'm doing perfectly
And the world's gone mad
Isn't it sad
I'm the only one who understands?
That everybody's underneath a curse
It's so absurd
I waited ages for my turn
Turns out it doesn't work on me

MY TOWN

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The streets are singin' a broken promise
Flickerin' lights that have been forgotten
Maybe you think that nobody's home yet
A city you'd love if you came any closer
Scribbled onto these walls
Are messages from before
From people that come and go
Through like a travelling show
Nobody stays for long
In my town, in my town
Nobody's rushin' at nine in the morning
And nobody's worried about where you're going
Happy or sad with no expectation
If you wanna visit we'll meet at the station
Scribbled onto these walls
Are messages from before
From people that come and go
Through like a travelling show
Nobody stays for long
In my town, in my town
Mmm, just visitors in the night
Mmm, just strangers and passers-by
People, they come and go
Through like a travelling show
Nobody stays for long
So please could you be the one
Who stays till the morning sun?
In my town, in my town

HATE ME TOO

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Friday night falls
Rolling into bars in the heart of Soho
Just one phone call
And I'm right back in, no I just can't say no
And I won't tell anybody where I'm going tonight
Say I drank a little much and I do my goodbyes
"I'm wasted"
But I'm not wasted
And I'll find the blue door at the end of your street
And I'll do the same knock so you know that it's me
Wait patiently
And you hold my hand in the street light
And you kiss my lips and it feels right
When you hit me hard with the goodbye
We know I'll be back again
'Cos it feels so good when you come round
Just to set me up for a breakdown
And I let you do it
You know hate you, but I hate me too
(Let you do it)
Yeah, I hate you, but I hate me
(Let you do it)
You know I hate you, but I hate me
Two weeks go by
Not a word's been said, we go back to strangers
And I'm doing just fine
I got you out my head, haven't cried in ages
But when you call me up late in the dead of the night
And you use the same lines that I hear every time
You need me
God, I'm so easy
So I find the blue door at the end of your street
And I do the same knock so you know that it's me
Wait patiently
And you hold my hand in the street light
And you kiss my lips
When you hit me hard with the goodbye
We know ill be back again
'Cos it feels so good when you come 'round
Just to set me up for a breakdown
And I let you do it
You know hate you
But I hate me
Standing at your doorstep
Wondering why I'm here again
You know that I hate you
You know that I hate me
You won't ever love me
But tonight let's just pretend
You know that I hate you, you, you, you, you, you, you
And you hold my hand in the street light
And you kiss my lips and it feels right
When you hit me hard with the goodbye
We know I'll be back again
'Cos it feels so good when you come round
Cos it feels
Just to set me up for a breakdown
And I let you do it
Let you do
You know hate you, but I hate me too
(Let you do it)
Yeah, I hate you, but I hate me
(Let you do it)
You know I hate you, but I hate me
Yeah, I hate you, but I hate me too
(Let you do it)
You know I hate you, but I hate me too

CURSE DAN TERJEMAHAN

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Everybody's underneath a curse
Semua orang berada dalam kutukan
But it doesn't work on me
Tapi itu tidak bekerja padaku
Everybody's out there getting hurt
Semua orang di luar sana tersakiti
But I'm doing perfectly
Tapi aku merasa hebat
And the world's gone mad
Dan dunia menjadi gila
Isn't it sad?
Bukankah itu menyedihkan?
I'm the only one who understands?
Hanya aku yang mengerti?
Everybody's underneath a curse
Semua orang berada dalam kutukan
It's so absurd
Itu sangat konyol
Lucky, it doesn't work on me
Untungnya, itu tidak bekerja padaku
It's delusional, insanity
Itu adalah khayalan, penyakit jiwa
All staring at each other like zombies
Semua saling menatap seperti zombie
You put yourself through all kinds of hell
Kau menguatkan diri menghadapi semua jenis neraka
Just to share the nights with someone else
Hanya untuk menghabiskan malam berdua dengan orang lain
Once I came pretty close
Suatu saat aku sudah sangat dekat
God, I'm so grateful that she let me go
Tuhan, aku bersyukur karena dia melepaskanku
I'm better on my own
Aku lebih baik sendirian
Don't know how you people cope
Tidak tahu bagaimana kalian menghadapinya
Everybody's underneath a curse
Semua orang berada dalam kutukan
But it doesn't work on me
Tapi itu tidak bekerja padaku
Everybody's out there getting hurt
Semua orang di luar sana tersakiti
But I'm doing perfectly
Tapi aku merasa hebat
And the world's gone mad
Dan dunia menjadi gila
Isn't it sad?
Bukankah itu menyedihkan?
I'm the only one who understands?
Hanya aku yang mengerti?
Everybody's underneath a curse
Semua orang berada dalam kutukan
A stupid word
sebuah kata yang bodoh
Lucky, it doesn't work on me
Untungnya itu tidak bekerja padaku
Yeah, expensive date and city breaks
Kencan mahal dan perjalanan di kota
Burning through your money, what a waste
Menghabiskan uang, sungguh sia-sia
And I don't need to memorize
Dan aku tidak perlu mengingatnya
Anniversaries and valentines
Hari jadi dan valentine
Don't try to pull me in
Jangan coba menarikku masuk
To your world of movie scripts and violins
Ke dalam duniamu yang drama
I can't be fooled you see
Aku tidak bisa dibodohi, kau lihat
I've got immunity
Aku mendapatkan kekebalan
Everybody's underneath a curse
Semua orang berada dalam kutukan
But it doesn't work on me
Tapi itu tidak bekerja padaku
Everybody's out there getting hurt
Semua orang di luar sana tersakiti
But I'm doing perfectly
Tapi aku merasa hebat
And the world's gone mad
Dan dunia menjadi gila
Isn't it sad?
Bukankah itu menyedihkan?
I'm the only one who understands?
Hanya aku yang mengerti?
Everybody's underneath a curse
Semua orang berada dalam kutukan
It's so absurd
Itu sangat konyol
I waited ages for my turn
Aku menunggu sekian lama untuk giliranku
Turns out it doesn't work on me
Namun tetap tidak mempan padaku

HELLO

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D'you know how many lies I've had to tell my friends?
How many nights I've seen out to the end?
Lost count of the times I've rewritten
Messages I'll never send
If you knew all the ways I tried to forget
All the days that I've wasted lyin' in my bed
If you knew that it breaks every little
Piece of me each time you leave
Baby, then maybe you wouldn't call
Maybe then you'd just leave me alone
'Cause I can't help but fall apart
Got me right back at the start
Funny how you always know
When I'm 'bout to let you go
You show up and say hello
And I wish that I could block you out
But, damn, you got your timin' down
Funny how you always know
When I'm 'bout to let you go
You show up and say hello
D'you know how many dates I've drived myself to
Dulling the ache with somebody new
But then all that it takes is just a little
Word from you, if only you knew
Baby, then maybe you wouldn't call
Maybe then you'd just leave me alone
'Cause I can't help but fall apart
Got me right back at the start
Funny how you always know
When I'm 'bout to let you go
You show up and say hello
And I wish that I could block you out
But, damn, you got your timin' down
Funny how you always know
When I'm 'bout to let you go
You show up and say
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
When I'm 'bout to let you go
You show up and say hello
Just a late drunken text
You'll be fine, I'm a mess
'Cause it's nothin' to you
You got nothin' to lose
And I'll never say no
'Cause I'm stuck in the hope you stay
'Cause I can't help but fall apart
Right back at the fuckin' start
Funny how you always know
When I'm 'bout to let you go
You show up and say...
And I wish that I could block you out
But, damn, you got your timin' down
Funny how you always know
When I'm 'bout to let you go
You show up and say
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
But I guess I kinda miss you, so
I don't mind one more hello